alone

i finally realized, i'm pretty much the only person on this earth that will ever fully understand me.

so maybe i should stop hating myself so much.

spent friday night alone, figured out some things.

been alone so far, since.

i don't hate it as much as i try to convince myself i do, or should. 

my filthy habits are the only things that are getting to me, that and the fact that i don't see myself the way others do, which is what is leading me down my path of self destruction. hopefully i'll get over that soon. it's about time.

other than that, i can finally stand being alone by myself. which is a weird, weird feeling.

it's been raining, for so long. my sunflowers are like a new pet to me. and they need the sun. one of them is on their way out. it makes me sad. i just want to save it.